The cut

`Ever wonder if life is fair? It`s like one moment you are just having the time of your life and everything seems perfect. We would get so attached that we even realise that we have changed a lot, but surprisingly, it does not bother us at all.

You see, I had a mission of protecting my heart from the lethal strings of love itself but my weak and frail self just gave in. I fell deep, though I loved it, as fatal as it is, I just turned my back from the truth. "That I was worthless and no man can change that." However, still in the midst of my misery, he approached me, with skin so smooth as silk, personality so great it would just lead you to give in and above all a dime so precious and beautiful that it transforms everything to greatness. When I first met George, I felt a cold breeze brush through my spine and inside my heart longed for him so much that it crawled to him the moment he stepped through that door.

My love-struck self just merely tried to resist his presence and before I could blink, reaching out for `My happy ending`, written by Ty.J. Royal, I felt that soft touch and the warmth of his kind-hearted spirit as we went for the same book.

"How could you possibly got to that bookstore when you could just go out with your girls and have fun", boasted my sister. But you see, I could not let go of `Unforgettable Moments` for it was the one bookstore that just supplied me with the happiness I needed. I toured through all the books, from romance, action, sci-fi, you name it. I could not resist splatters and thrillers though because they seemed to help me forget my misery awhile when I paged through them.

After visiting the bookstore I would chill at `Exquisite Divine` which so happened to be my favourite restaurant. I do have to admit, every time in school, I felt like the normal teenager every parent wanted and I visited my two favourite places after school and during weekends, but when I was alone, behind closed doors, pain and loneliness were the only friends I had after the death of my dog. I relied on it for almost everything; hanging out with it, taking walks and it always put a smile on my face each time, no questions asked.

"I`m sorry, I didn't know you read Ty.J. Royal, at least I never thought I would ever meet anyone who read him," his sweet voice drew me back on earth and I discovered to have dropped a tear or two after thinking on my past years of misery without Spike. "I am George by the way, don`t want to seem rude or anything but can you accept my hankie as a token of my appreciation for I just met `the one`, unless if you are tied". Accepting his hankie and wiping the river off my face, my heart sank in the moment. That was my happy ending, or at least I thought it was.

We spent time together, we talked at school and at home. Did I mention, after discovering we went to the same school made matters worse, "George and Lyla were inseparable", that is what we always said until my parents decided to move away. That meant I would only see him at school and never at home. That right there turned my happy moments into terror and misery. The love faded and we fought. The move overwhelmed us and we were incompatible. Loneliness took over again after he ended the connection. I lost a friend, a lover and as time went by, my heart.

I uttered empty words that were meaningless inside, riddles were all that came out whenever I opened my so called larynx to sprout something out. I was a dead-man walking, carcass powerful to walk with pride. Hmm! The opposite actually, I wished the ground would just open and swallow me, save me from my misery called life. My `love-life` was over, George never left sight of my mind and heart, well, let us say it was crawling by his side and not mine.

Whenever I visited memory lane by looking at my infinity box, filled with treasures so important that it was the only thing I had of him, each time I did, tears ran down my face, leaving only trails of scars and pain. Truly the universe had won me over. My life was just a muddy pond filled with dirt, when the pond is cleaned, only cracks are discovered, `a resemblance of the cut inside`. Beneath every adventure I faced revealed only sadness sorrow and pain since Georges farewell.

However, I could not mend the cracks in my life for he was the true reason of my happiness. My happy moments, unforgettable moments all led to my happy ending. My happy ending filled with scars and open wounds at every corner just resembling the cut inside, that is the cut of my broken heart.