Diary fragment 15-11-2024: ‘Mother Nature

When a man who looked completely stoned when he looked at me in Amsterdam 
Darkskinned but beautiful, having a date himself 
And then he saw me 
I never have seen a man looking at me that way
Must been his first time of seeing me 
Not knowing me 
While the entire world knows me 
There are still people around who don’t know me 
And they fall in love straight away it seems 
I’m glad to know that God made me beautiful 
For every kind of person 
I was followed by paparazzi and the crowd being paparazzi too making pictures of me
As if I am this celebrity 
What a great time to be alive 
I appear on your security cams like wanted but I am spied on to be protected 
Turns men on 
Turns even women on 
So they hate me 
Cut in themselves 
And want to be me 

Today a kid saved me 
God didn’t showed me his face 
But he was as if my child 
And made me into a queen 
While my child, only takes away 
But I still love him 
Because I carried him for 9 months 
And then they took him away 
Today I am a mother for every child who wants to feel loved or dreams about me 
What a gift 
When my child got stolen away, the surprise was that I became a Mother Nature 
For the kids, the animals and the elderly 
I love this position undercover so perfectly 
I love my parents till death 
Thank you. 

Nadiya