Hollow

Do you ever feel like your insides have been ripped out? Like there is nothing left inside of you but a huge gaping hole? Or like, even though you feel a constant dull pain in the core of your being, you arent really there? I do. I feel like a ghost, a spirit, a spectre, just floating down the corridors of my life. I am unseen and unheard. An echo of a once joyous and happy life, now a dismal existance koping around like you aren't even there. You can't speak, can't be heard, can't interact with the world around you. Any physical pain feels muted and numbed. Even the weight of gravity doesn't seem to be there. But I wonder on, trapped in an endless cycle, just wishing I could move on to the next life...