I didn’t even felt the pain

I didn’t felt the pain 
Of how the fire embraced my face 
My hair 
And skin 
And because of all of that sin 
Allah gave me a second chance 
To end up hearing the story of the so called punishments in the sink at my parents house 

I turned 26 
And I don’t want a battle about who is more beautiful 
Who is more smart 
Who deserves what I deserve my whole life 
Or who will burn in hell or remains in the gardens of heaven in the afterlife 
The judgement was already made 
I will go to heaven 
So they want me to die 

I didn’t even noticed 
He took me into a ambulance 
Looked at me excited to see me again 
As if he recognized me 
But I just saw a stranger 
He told me out of nowhere:
We had sex once…
In Vught in the GGZ 
I was shocked 
He also didn’t used a condom 
Because he got to my satellite 

Hello new life of mine
It’s been going well lately 

Nadiya