Monsters & demons.

"These monsters I was scared of, that were under my bed, are the same demons that have taken over, in my head"

these monsters were everywhere.
they would watch my every move.
they would slowly destroy me inside.
They would trip me when they could, so I could fall and stumble upon life without a reason to live anymore.
they had names, and when the word escaped my mouth, they would instantly come, weather I wanted them to or not.
"pain", "hurt", "anger", "sadness", "hope" and "crushed dreams".
That what they were called.
pain would present herself by bringing me a painful memory, like a loved one I lost, a first love missed or a good friend gone.
Hurt presented himself by making me do things, that I would not do if it was up to me, but he would control me in ways I didn't think possible.
Anger always came when I was about to explode.
It came to destroy me a little more, to just be that needle to pop that bubble that I was trying so hard to maintain.
Sadness, my favorite.
It came by making me cry, making me remember things that were all gone, little pieces of life that are now the past.
Hope came when I smiled.
I would feel the happiness radiating and shining from down below me, coming up to make a smile on my face.
But eventually, crushed dreams always decided to ruin the party.
He would crush that little hope I had by telling me that it could never happen, whatever it was that gave me hope.
They controlled me, until one day, I realized that if I fought hard enough, I could win.
Its a hard thing, to fight yourself, to try and win a war when all the battles have been lost.
Its even harder when you have to do it on your own, and your main enemy is yourself.
But see, I did it.
I won that war, which is all that mattered.
I learned to control those monsters, and eventually, I beat them, I knocked them down, and I slowly began to love myself.
I felt lighter once those monsters were gone, once those demons were vanished from my mind.
If you ask me what it took, what I can tell you is that it took a whole lot of strength, faith, love and hope.
Those monsters that were hiding under my bed, and those demons that took over my head, they controlled me once.
But what they made is even better, a strong girl full of hope and happiness.