RELIGIOUS STRUGGLES

I once was an innocent girl with no offense in life , I went to school where beginning of knowledge began, I was so shy and had no clue of what life had installed ahead of me. The transition began from pre school until I finished my primary school

I went to high school where I got introduced to religion and so many others , I remember my first step to Christianity it was because I had failed in Mathematics . Turning to God and getting introduced to the religious system in school had a great impact on my life .I got introduced to the christian union where I served God but it was not late until I realized that Instead of seeking God in my academic life I was instead seeking man's approval . I acted righteous and pleasing before man's eyes that I forgot my salvation it was all about God. 
 
I can't say that there was bad leadership but I can say that there was discrimination among who was spiritual than the other and for me to understand that Christianity it was all about glorifying God I got lost in the process that instead of becoming a follower to Gods teaching I became a puppet to man's teaching that never aimed to bring glory to God but to men . I became a self made prophet where I believed of experiencing strong convictions which were actually self created. I lost focus on my studies and dropped from a B student to a C student. My desire for recognition in terms of religion grew that I forgot my priority being academics.

My drop affected my mental health where I started questioning myself about so many things that where I realized I was wrong I sought forgiveness from God and trusted In His guiding hand .
"GOD NEVER DESIRES FAILURES FOR HIS CHILDREN SO ANYTHING THAT AIMS TO BRING FAILURE IN THE NAME OF GLORIFYING GOD ITS RELIGIOUS STUPIDITY."