Revelations (Retake)

I'm starting over, I'm slowly learning to care again, I'm slowly deciding to care about the important things. Life may suck, but it doesn't always have to be that way. My ways are unconventional and awkward to the rest of the world, but that's okay. Because I'm not living this life to please other inconsiderate humans, but to please myself and my loved ones. It's a difficult revelation, and it didn't come to me through religion or some metaphysical being somewhere high in the sky. But through looking back at my past, understanding what happened without feeling past emotions. Mistakes are meant to learn from, and that's how I know that living my own life to how I see fit is a good decision. My life from now is most likely to be unorthodox and weird according to other people, but those people haven't felt what I have, they haven't seen or heard the things I have, and all in all, they aren't me. I am the only one who knows what I want out of life, I am the only one who can make it happen. Fuck the world and it's views, so what if I'm damned to Hell because I had sex with his girlfriend, so what if I'm considered a bad influence because I smoke and party, if it ends up being a mistake in the end, then that's the end. I did it, I don't regret it. I want to live my life with no regrets. No matter what it takes, it's going to be great, ups and downs expected, but that's okay, cause I'm done living like a dog.