Traveling
There might be a storm today with heavy Rain and wind blowing through the country side. Am listening to music inside my room. Searching a bit on the internet in between. There isn't much to see actually. Social media is getting less by day. Should I delete them? Then I lose all of my contacts as well. Wishing someone a happy birthday. The least you can do. I don't see many people anymore. We all get older. Moving out of town. Working. Relationships and children. We all have different goals in our life. I don't go out that often to meet new people. That is of the past. Last Saturday I did went out for the first time since Summer of the previous year. It wasn't much fun and walked back home within one hour. I remembered why I don't go out that often. Prefer to stay home. Doing things I like. Sometimes I watch YouTube's on my TV. Way better than the regular TV programs. I can't concentrate well enough to watch daily. So every now and then I do. Streaming a documentary or series online. Music is something I really like. Last night I listened to the piano works of William Bond. Called "Amor Fati". Really relaxing music before going to bed. Furthermore I listen to all sorts of music. 60's, 70's, 80's, 90's and so on. Only I don't listen to music from this time. It's really bad.
Other things I would love to do in the future is to travel. . I haven't been on a holiday for nearly 12 years. New cultures, nature, museums, different societies, point of views and spiritual meanings. Am living in my home town for my entire life. Would love to move to another place, even abroad. Growing to new horizons. I hope I might someday. In the mean time I am thinking a lot about life. Also about the afterlife. The mind can do strange things. What is reality sense when losing it. Where is your innercore. What is normal in society, but also when looking to the afterlife. Is religion True? Maybe reading other works on that. Different views. What is reality when losing it. Am I a weirdo on that? I had a dream that I was on a tropical Island and was trying to let people read my work. Maybe I know more than the average person about the afterlife, reincarnation and the universe. It's really there, no doubt about it. People can do weird things in life. You have to make good for that eventually. Trying to get back on track again. I'm writing and drawing about that. Reflecting my innercore with the higher spheres of the afterlife. You get more peace from that. You can't get lost in the love of God. Universal love, unconditional for everything that lives. The darker places of your mind and innerfeelings will be lit in light. No more fear and anxiety in neverending turmoils. You can let go of them. Life on Earth isn't the end. You will move on in the afterlife. Reincarnating from one life into another. Isn't it beautiful?
Picking up a pastel. Drawing on a piece of paper. I draw a couple of lines and continue from that with colours and a story. In the past I made other works as well. I didn't like them, until I looked at them many years later. I was busy with time, the mind and the afterlife. Acrylics, pen, pencil and pastel. I drew a lot about the afterlife, still do to this day. It is an interesting subject. Would love to have new expositions in the future, combining them with poems I wrote. It is interesting to see older works as well. Always trying to get as much on the paper. Not getting stuck in time and labyrinths. In the mean time I wrote two books. Small ones. One with a story about being Chronic psychotic and heavy schizophrenic. Moving on to poems and artwork about the afterlife. The mind is something beautiful and dark at the same time. You do need it. Letting go of the boxes of thought, from one life and society you are living in. Then grabbing it again with new perspectives on the afterlife. In an ocean of love, swimming further without drowning. Letting go of the shores. The materialistic world floats away and you will move further in the energies of the afterlife. You will remember things you have forgotten. They are hidden for you at this moment. So grow in universal love in the best way you can. Flowing over in a new body and coming back on Earth until the end of your reincarnation cycle.
