Trying To Save My Memories

(This writing is different memories that I twist with wordplay to get you thinking and is for me to realize. It is long but one of my favorite writings, made me cry free-styling this.)
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My life is like my driving record never ending.
Memories always fading wishing you could go back to the times that always occur in your dreams.
Nothing better than sitting up all night playing those games hyped up on energy drinks.
Digging the ground until a chill spot is made where thoughts will float up like the smoke in the flames.
And our desires will be played in the sounds coming from the sweet guitars.
Simply living life to its full potential, no worries of the world around us.
Hidden in the maze of corn that we form into a fort and any attacks will get cobs thrown at them.
In the winter we will go and walk away to the creek and hopefully it will hold us up as we cross taking on the risks.
Got that liquor bottle from the hidden stash half empty yet full of water all the wrong that we did flows within.
Adrenaline coarses through the veins as dogs bite our heels from music ding donging in their ears.
Lights flashing, tires shredding they keep off our ass just like the paint there always says.
Back to back holding on to sheets when the ladders fall from beneath.
Yeah it's heavy but never please let go cause never could I live this life not knowing that you'll be right there.
Tears were shed within, no one could see but it was Everclear, that liquor bottle shows all and so do the roaches crawling out those empty pockets.
Where the lock it's broken and never opened so we beg and plea just go back to the times we always used to have as kids.
Yeah high school was greatest times of our lives.
My two best friends and now there's three we all are free, but now it seems that's not what it looked to be.
All I see is green clouds in the sky, some spirals start to form as responsibilities build and pick up the bricks of life.
Destroying our perfect house like it's made of a bail of straw, that big bad wolf has got us scared shivering on that half inch ice and the lice they bite and feed on our sanity thinking that we're free.
Yeah not me.
Maybe if I get to add more times like we once had back in the day and then I'll say that this life is not being wasted.
Cause we only get one and I lie under the sky as I cry trying to remember everything that once occurred, cause my dreams are leaving me like the morning night.
And I am frightened that one day they will not return and I'll have nothing but and empty carcass filled with an empty soul.
Where my gingerness will finally come true and I will have to go and capture souls to fill this void I feel within.
It seems that light is growing thin where darkness takes over just a spew of emotions explode as a peak of total potential walks in front of our eyes.
Got the colors running next to demons showing so much depth that only few can understand.
And stuck between two rocks we travel past the sun into future leaving all we know in the next galaxy.
I believe that there are scars on our arms in order to keep the bonds going until we turn to dust and the lust of our friendships will glow brighter than the hottest sun.

Yeah son these three J's and an added Z are my best friends always there when I need them most and ready to live it up 'til we turn to ghosts.
Find someone you can call best friend and keep it til you are great brothers in the end.
Laying in the comfy beds under the grave while you rave always in dreams.
Cause son nothing in this life you live is more important than the friends you call your brothers and the ever made memories that can replace no others.

"JJJZ" Jimmie, Jordan, Jeff, Zack