Don't Know

It's been 6 months, and I'm still counting, since the day you said goodbye.
Yet, not a day goes by without thinking about you, still wondering where you are.
I tell myself I should learn to let you go. But the same heart could never find the courage to say it to you.
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The other day, I texted you random posts about current happenings worldwide. 
Something we both always love talking about..
I can see that I'm still drawn to share everything I find interesting with you. 
It's like I'm still living under your spell.. and I hate to admit it.
I hate it cause you don't act the way that I love you. Or, maybe cause you just never said it anymore..
These days, I've been telling myself that I may have to make up my mind.. 
My friends been telling me, I need to respect myself.. 
That either I should keep your memories with me and lock my heart away (from someone new), waiting for a miracle that could save what we've had or just burn every bridges and let life takes different turn for both of us.. wherever it may leads.
Honestly, I want none of them. 
What I want is for you to come here, my way, and find me.. 
What I want is for you to fight these obstacles to get to me.. 
What I want is for you to reverse this nightmare into hopeful joys, for our tomorrow.

I still love you.
I'm still singing love songs to strangers about us.. 
How about you? 
Do you feel the same way, too? 

​​​​​The world has taken you away from me, it keeps you busy and forces you to choose ideals over life, even your own.. 
​​​​​​I don't even know of you're still alive. 
But I pray to God to hold you close whatever situation you maybe in..
Till I know an answer, this restless mind will still be living in the memories of you and I don't know how to do differently.. 
Or if I wanted to.

Come back to me.
Unbreak my broken heart..