Am I better off this way?

To live in world without parents

It sure is tough and lonely

As my buddies were getting cars for graduation

I got a third job and the title of a high school drop out

Oh ya and custody of a 13 year old kid

I wish drugs didn't exist

Perhaps my parents could have loved me better

I am tired of wishing and wondering

I turned out alright, on the outside, that's what counts I guess

I didn't turn to drugs, or sell my body or killed anyone like statistics would suggest 

But that is just the little picture

I long to feel normal and complete

And then I feel selfish for feeling that way

The family I have made is supposed to make me feel complete

No matter how much I love, no matter where I go or what I do

I feel broken, like I'm missing a limb

I wish I didn't feel this way

I wish I could believe in God so passionately like others do

I've tried my hardest, and I can't believe he fixes everything

I have begged him to fix me my whole life, I am still a shattered soul

I wish I could erase from my mind all the evil I have seen

Why can't I run to mom and dad when I feel sad

AM I JUST BETTER OFF THIS WAY?