Psychotic obsessions with meeting 'L' aka Gatsby

L, I’m Adrianna. I really hope you’re okay. This city aggravates me so much. I wonder if it stresses you out or gets to you sometimes too? I would hate that I wish it were simple to live here. I can be so much sometimes. I hope that you have people you can talk to, but if you want to, I’m here. I’m so dramatic sometimes. I wish I could be someone’s everything. I don’t know if you know that kind of feeling? I think I’m a bit messed up at the moment. I used to live with my boyfriend. Please let us find a way to communicate, I feel so much care for you. I know I don’t know you. I wish I did. Maybe that can change. When is your birthday? What star sign are you? What is the correct spelling of your name? People always get mine wrong. They think it has 1 n but it has 2. I’m so happy that your lights turn on, they are so pretty. The flowers in the blue boxes are so so sweet. I hope they make you remember how lucky we are to be alive. I wish It felt easier for me to come and say hi. I get awkward because I feel like you might think I’m a bit young and weird. Sometimes London can feel so small. It sometimes feels like there’s no place to run that’s quiet. I am so so happy you are here. It makes me a little crazy, I’m sorry. What do you think is the different between love and lust? I feel so sexually driven more than most? I can’t imagine for myself being so okay with my own company, it’s so good, I wish I could be like that. We might just have different experiences of life. I don’t know why I rely on people so much. Let me know you, please I don’t know if you have this issue, but I’m kind of hyper aware of people trying to control me. Maybe because I’m a female? Maybe because my mum tried to control me so much when I was younger (I’m thinking now it was for protection, but it felt so hard at the time). My mum and me got into fights, physical ones. It was the worst time. I don’t remember everything. I’m really immature, I feel like maybe compared to you? I don’t know the names for certain drinks, I wouldn’t know a thing about how to do anything remotely adult really. I don’t know if you feel like that too, I don’t know if there’s an age we get to where we become true adults? I get a bit insecure. I’m sorry. I’m not as cool as I want to be. I’m hoping to make peace with that at some point. I want to stop chasing things that I shouldn’t, like alcohol, and drugs. I’ve never been addicted. I think I just love some of the moments in my life that feel like they help me free myself a bit, when I was younger especially. I don’t know where you grew up, where did you grow up? I get a bit confused sometimes. I think I’m a bit emotional at the moment. I loved when you were out a while ago drinking something, you looked so thoughtful. I wonder what you were thinking about? I hide in myself. I can be nice. I just get so obsessed sometimes, it’s hard to admit that. What were any of your previous relationships or flings like? I don’t want to assume anything, I also don’t want to condescend to you. I overthink a lot. I guess I just think you’re great And I hope you know that too. I don’t know you too well. You seem like a great guy. My trust is so low sometimes. I feel like I don’t know much about the world. It feels so weird. It’s kind of like being reborn again, and seeing everything differently. I guess these changes happen throughout life? I wouldn’t really know. I want to be a part of your life, as a friend, or just a neighbour I’m living with my parents and it’s so hard. I’m sorry if this situation with me and my parents gets to you. I wish there were an easy solution. I had an eating disorder a while back and I feel self conscious here. Some of the things I thought I went through have returned. I’m so sorry for being annoying and loud. I really hope you’re doing okay. You scare me. I think your older than me? I don’t know what you’ve been through. I don’t know how to reach you.