to my birth mother <3

My only wish is to see my birth mother and hold her hand. I don't want money, I just want her. 

My parents told me I can only meet and look for her when I'm 19, and I was devastated. I'm only 12, and have so many years to go. I don't even think I can wait that long! 

I ask my parents everyday for more information about her. I'm THIRSTY for more knowledge about her. 

Why did she leave me? Did she leave for her own desires? Did she forget about me? Does she even miss me? Did she replace me with another? 

I have so many questions to ask her and my parents. But they always say how good of a person she was and how I should be happy. But I WANT TO KNOW MORE!
This is my dream though. Yeah, it might be dumb to think like this, but I want to see her face to face, not in my imagination and dreams.
Just another 7 more years to go, I guess. Oh well. 

If my mom does find this, I just have to say:

Hi! I don't know how to say this but I love you so much, even though we hardly know one another. I just want to hug you through this computer screen and shower you with kisses! I don't care if you don't want to see me, because I yearn for you! I could go on and on but I have to go!

Bye-