Just A Little Someting

I just want those days where I wake up and see you sleeping so soundly next to me. I don't care about your morning breath, or the dry drool on the side of your face, or the crusty eye boogers that have formed in the corners of your eyes. Being able to say "good morning" to you every day and "good night" every night is something that I dream of every day. When I'm bored in class, my mind drifts off and I always see you. I think about those days when the weather is really shitty and my car is stuck in the drive way, so I get to go to town with you. I can sit close to you and warm myself up by cuddling as close as possible. Those days where we just want to be lazy all day and stay in a pajamas and play Xbox or watch movies all day, and I can make cookies or brownies or something because I know you like sweets, are the days that I am looking forward to the most. I wondered what our first big fight would be over and how we would make up. One day I want to show you how to cook something and see how bad it turns out I will still eat it because I love you. It's funny because you say the same thing to me about my love for Mexican food.That's something I love about you, you love everything I do, everything about me. The way I feel about you honestly scares the shit out of me because the last time I had these feelings for someone, it rocked my world and I didn't think I was gonna wanna love anyone ever again. I know I had relationships before you and after him, but now that I look back, I never did love any of them. I want to know who you are when I'm not around. Do you sing in the shower? How do you feel when you're alone and I'm not there? Do you miss me when I'm not there? How often do you think about me? I want to get to know every little part of you, even the parts of you that come our when I'm not there. I do love you, and I may have said that to people and didn't mean it but the way I feel about you is something familiar, like it's supposed to be this way. The way I feel about you makes my life seem a little more brighter. While I'm writing this, I texted you telling you I missed you, and the feeling I got in my heart and the stupid little smile I got on my face when you sent back, "I miss you too" is what I want to feel every day.  I love you. Please, don't break my heart. It would be too painful to live with.