Saving It For Later

I wrote you a letter today. I haven't seen you in months. I miss you so much and it hurts to know that you are away. The letter I wrote you today was pretty lengthy. I asked how you were doing and how your family was. I finally get the chance to see you today and I really want to give you the letter....

....It was nice seeing you today. I had so much to say to you but there was also so much on my mind that I could hardly say a word. I didn't give you the letter today because I want to save it for later. I knew you wouldn't be able to read it in front of me but I will save it for later. I want to save it for a time much more memorable than this....

...Its been years since I've seen you now, I still have that letter I wrote you, but I can't to seem to know the right moment to give it to you. I miss you so much. It's getting harder and harder going one more day without you. I'm pretty alone right now and have been thinking about going away. I think I'm going to go find you. Where are seem like a big place but I'm sure we will run into each  other eventually. I have been saving this letter for later and later is going  to be sooner than you think.I know people will miss me when I leave but they will never miss me as much as I miss you right now...

....Today is the day I get to see you! I am very excited because I can see you and give you the letter I wrote you! My mom and dad are really sad that I left but, I was hurting so much, and needed to get away. This place is so beautiful I never want to leave. Here is the letter I wrote you. I am glad I saved it for later... 

The Letter

Hi. I'm not sure what to think right now. Everything seemed fine that night, and I hate myself that I couldn't see the pain you were going through. Why didn't you tell me? I have so many questions for you that I can't get answers to anymore. I love you and I miss you. You may not of realized how many people showed up. There were so many tears on everyone's faces. I was hurting so bad that when I tried to cry tears would not fall. It was so hard to believe you were gone. I saw your mom and dad and your little sister. They were all so sad. Usually their faces are glowing and they say how much they love you, but that day the glow was gone. Their bodies looked as tired as their hearts. I wish heaven wasn't so far away, I would visit you all the time. One day we will be together again, and we will be happy forever. Your sister gave me some of your shirts and some she printed some pictures out of you and I. Your shirts still smell like you. I haven't gotten out of bed in a few weeks. I just lie there listening to our song over and over again just drowning out the world trying to make the hurt go away.Every where I go, everything I see through out the day reminds me of you.  I see little pieces of you in the things I enjoy and it just makes me miss you more and more. One day we will reunite and everything will be better. I am just glad you're not in any pain or sorrow anymore. You're finally free. You grew your wings and flew away, damn did you fly high. 

....I am truly happy now, I know they are hurt from my absence but, I would rather be here with you and feel nothing but bliss and happiness than be there, around your family and mine and be dying on the inside. I wore your shirt so when you saw me it would make you smile. I missed your smile, and your laugh, and your eyes. We can finally be together for ever just like we planned.