Nightmare to me (picture is not mine)

I had stood in the sand dunes above the beach to watch your wed.

Another man. In all my dread. I wanted to be happy for you.

Swallowing hard with reluctant acceptance. I couldn't hear your vows to him.

And didn't want to. Not even attempting to lip read. I could see your smile well enough as you looked up at him.

And that was all that mattered. You kissed him and I had to turn away. Filled with jealousy.

Knowing how you kissed, flooded me with memories of how much you had meant to me.

I knew I had lost you now. And I woke up to realize perhaps it was your future.

Perhaps in your dreams,  but a vivid nightmare to me.