Said I

It's funny seeing a woman taking the leading role, said I...you wash the dishes, you vacuum the floor, and steam clean it when done, while I struggle with men things like arguing with the elite and powering with Hebrew Israelite and fake wanna be Jews who know less about their own history then me... who feel they have big balls...but there is much more to being a man said I...like how much money is coming in, against what is going out, and who gets first place in our heart and affections...when plight comes, what is our reaction...said I...make up your own bed, and go shopping I'm busy, I wash the clothes, oh by the way can you hang them up I have other things to do...hold your tongue sir, thankful are you who have no place of your own, and when you eat where you have not sown, is the way of the humble, even if wrong has the floor, said I...so many men in my life I have taught to speak Dutch has warn me out, oh dont worry I can learn on my own said I...whatever I can do to make you comfortable while living in the comforts of a warm bed and a meal even if I have to cook it for the both of us...said I...someone stole your bike, ok its not that bad or that big of a deal, that you need to die over it, said I, your bills are not higher then hope, nor is your past so undone we can't walk a days journey to unravel it said I...but you lead if it will make you feel the wiser, and give you the better comfort...for being a man is not all that its cracked up to be, said I...when people see me they see a loser, one who leaches of other people, when I see myself, I see a man, who gave a woman a promise and moved hell to make it true even if broke when i arrived...but if being a loser can save you from a nervous breakdown, and walking the way of the humble will help see you safely to the place best suited for you, then its a price I will gladly pay, for the man in me would have it no other way...said I...God has seen fit to lead me this way for a reason, to open to me weakness I could have never seen any other way, and since my desire is Heaven, I will talk to God about my way, and one step at a time bend my knee when the times bend my back...said I...for now you can be the man in your own home, and I what ever you need me to be,  you deserve at least this much for all those who have wounded thee...you aint heavy, your my sister, even if I could not find in you a wife...said I...nj