Marriage

His smile was all that I needed. His laughter that filled my ears, made me smile so bright that I knew my life with him would never end. I was wrong. I looked him in thee eyes and I knew I would never be the woman he loved with all his heart. He saw me as his little sister, nothing more could come of that. "Sarah what's wrong? you've be silent all evening. Did I do something to upset you?" His words made me cringe inside. I never wanted him to feel like he was the reason I cried at night. I simply shook my head and wanted to run away but the harder I tried, it was like I couldn't move. My body was so heavy and it was like I had no control over my muscles. "No..you did nothing wrong Alex, I'm just being a little girl. I'm sorry but I must leave." I couldn't look at him not matter how badly I wanted too. "You know, you'll always be like my little sister." His words struck like lightning to my heart. I never wanted to be his little sister. Yes he's my best friend but I never wanted this. He's the love of my life and I can't do this anymore. I know i'm just hurting myself. I walked over to shaded part of the house. I was so warm outside that it almost felt like summer. The world seemed so beautiful,yet so dark and cold at the same time. "I wonder what is wrong with him. why can't he see the way I look at him...." I sat on the ground and began to cry. The tears washed away the pain. He will never know how much he means to me.

"Ashley do you know what is wrong with Sarah?" She looked at me with surprise in her eyes. "You mean to tell me, that you have no idea why she's crying or why she walked away from you?" I was filled with shock. I didn't know she was crying. "If you know something, please tell me." Alex you told the pore girl you're getting married. She's been in love with you for years. I guess you can kind of say she's heart broken." I had no idea she felt this way. I never gave her a chance to speak her mind to me. I never thought she could love me. I have to make this right. I began to run. But every where I looked I couldn't find her. My heart started pounding, I thought I was going to fall to the floor and cry. I broke her heart and mine. Nothing makes sense anymore. I stood there in the middle of the yard searching for her. Then I heard a soft cry coming from the barn. I knew then, She was hiding so no one could see her tears for the horrible man I am. I slowly went up to the barn and listened. Her mumbles and tears were because of me. 

Alex will never know how much I love him. He's to be married. "Be strong." was all I could say to myself. I slowly got to my feet and turned around. I saw him looking at me with tears running down his face. I didn't know what to do or what to say. This all felt like a nightmare. I never wanted him to see me like this. "Sarah, I'm so sorry. I know you love me and I need you to know that I love you too. I didn't mean to break your heart. But you also didn't let me finish what I was trying to tell you. Yes I tease you and yes I joke around a lot. But you have been my best friend forever. What makes you think I would want to spend the rest of my life without you?" I stood still, I began to cry even more. the pain in my chest was beginning to consume me. "I don't know Alex." He smiled and at that very moment I was so confused. Than he did the unthinkable. He slowly got down on one knee. "Sarah now that I know you love me as much as I love you. Will you do me the honors of becoming my wife?" 

At the very moment I woke up. The dream felt so real. Almost like a memory not a dream. But it was nice. I was crying when I woke up, but when I turned my head I saw  my husband sleeping peacefully and it was nice to know that my dream has come true. I married my best friend.