Life is Heavy

I danced in the devils praise, I tasted all the temptation, when Hell’s bells rang I stood for the occasion, it was an alcohol induced, gateway to drugs, rock and roll with sex kind of nightmare! 

When I awoke, I felt disgusted. I was just trying to find myself, not go against every moral and value. Who I was, I just wasn’t certain, who I became no longer excited, amidst this fire, my self esteem expired. 

Before this path, before the journey, it was myself I hated, it was my existence I questioned. At others hands, at others actions, my true self was ultimately diluted, I was lost and confused from the abuse! 

I hit rock bottom!