I Fear You

My life’s track record isn’t something to be proud of, when I think back it disgusts me. 

Certain moments, certain days, many years, if you looked God you may think I don’t fear you!

That’s just not true, the bitter truth is I fear myself, for I haven’t always known right from wrong. 

I remember Jennifer screaming at me, “ you need morals and values” something to stand for!

The sad truth, I didn’t know what she meant, I didn’t know what those words meant.

Well I do now, I have grown to learn and understand, I have tried to overcome my childhood! 

I fear you God, I fear myself, although I know what I need to do I still loose track of myself. 

I have grown since those painful words, I have acknowledged a lot of pain and feelings I have suppressed.

I’m still not perfect, I still don’t feel worthy of how much I have been blessed, but maybe one day I will God. 

I no longer pray for myself, I no longer pray to be blessed, I now pray to be healed, I now desire to become my best! 

I fear you God, I fear myself!