In Need Of A Love

Sometimes I think to myself like damn i wish i had my soulmate right now. I wish I had that one person to love me, be patient with me, accept me and dont care what the next person feels about me or how we coming. Someone that looks at me and says “yea im about to make a family with her. I’m about to change her life.” See I never really been lucky with love , so I’m thinking maybe it’s time for it all to pay off.  It’s time for me to stop chasing it & it’s time for me to start letting it be proven to me. I think that’ll feel pretty good. In all reality though, I can’t blame anyone but myself for my so called “winning contestants”. None of them were fit for the job. But I was too blind… and young to see. The way my mind is programmed now, it’s my fucking dream to be placed with someone who’s a believer just as I am. Because if they don’t believe, we are on a road to nowhere. And if we are on a road to nowhere we are wasting time. And time is the most valuable thing when you only have one life to live. So what’s more beautiful than sharing that ONE LIFE with that ONE HUMAN BEING who is truly destined for you. But you wanna know what I think? Its not supposed to be easy. I don’t think God wanted it to be easy. And thats whats so scary about LOVE. It can be disguised.