20 years of change

11/04/2021

20 Years of Change

I hate waking up each day in pain.

Yet love to live to see another day.

What is it they say?

No pain,

No gain.

Well that’s certain and true of my thunderous life.

Would it be lovely, 

Wouldn’t it be nice,

Just for at least,

Me to be whole again...

20 years of heartache,

20 years of happiness and smiles.

20 years with cancer.

But Nowhere yet,

Near the end of my miles.

20 years of fighting,

20 years of being sick like this,

Literally all the while!

20 years of suffering,

Although amazing memories with my kids and my partner,

In-between. 

I’ve had to take on many changes,

As i soldier on.

If it wasn’t for my loved ones around me,

Who knows what kind of wreck head i would have become.

I dread to think of it,

ME,

As a normal person

See no one knows the real me,

Unless they knew me,

 before i turned 15.

That’s when my life started altering,

Unbeknown to thee.

Although i am the happiest I’ve ever been.

The height and type of it,

Nobody else,

 on this earth have ever seen.

Especially as 20 years ago,

I Should’ve simply ceased in being.

I should have died,

So for me to still be living,

To me,

Is still a fantastic dream!