Despair

Sometimes I almost forget the way you used to look at me when I was looking back at you..both pretending...

I document myself for thee
And all the ways I love you gradually.
To the gods, I beckon this...

She came out of the sky like
a rocket
and for a moment, or maybe
not quite
...

Hey Dad xxxxxx

Hey Dad,
it’s me.
Been nearly 14 years,
But the pain cuts deep...

Jump on board the tracks to suicide town
Leave your shoes upon the platforms edge
And...

I dont know anymore.....

I don't know anymore,
what is life to me?
What are dreams...

I'm holding on
To a hope and a prayer
Trying to be strong
Trying hard to stay there...

In my deepest sad sorrow
A place that no one can see
I'm drowning, sufficating
...

Weightless,
Breathless,
Piercing down to a world that is wireless,
Careless,
...

I will keep breathing and smiling
And joining in on all of the rides

I will grin,...

Beware, beware
they're hiding everywhere
some are pretty some are grand
some are...

Sheep are real. Sheep feel
The real things or taste the dew
On the grass they eat.
...

Mind of silence
A wish that can only
Be granted by death
When your wires are
...

Hidden light
Shadows daze over enigmatic eyes
Denial heart
Panic attacks
Lying...

time flies upon the wings
of missing
enchanted endless winters
eclipsed in an enigma...

I'm sitting on the edge with these broken feet
Got some miles on these shoes and it's killing me...