A THOUSAND TIMES TRYING

I'm holding on
To a hope and a prayer
Trying to be strong
Trying hard to stay there
But I want to run
I don't want to see you die
I don't want to see your suffering
While I'm still asking, Why?
I'm there, with tears in my eyes
Sadly waiting for that day
And a thousand times over
I'm still running away
With heartache and sorrow
Once again, I pray
Dear God: I can't take it
Please take this away
I'm dying too..
A thousand times dying
A thousand times holding her pain
A thousand times, trying
I'm holding on
To a hope and a prayer
A thousand times over
I'm trying hard to stay there
To hold her hand
Put a brave smile on my face
Dying inside
And leaving no trace
I'm there, with tears in my eyes
Sadly waiting for that day
And a thousand times over
I'm still running away