BENEATH MY BEAUTIFUL

I couldn't see beneath my beautiful 
I didn't know how worthy I was
I only saw whatever you told me
I became invisible to me
I was nothing
There was nothing left of who I hoped to be
I couldn't possibly be anything 
But a discarded, broken me
You say that you see my beautiful 
Something hidden deep within
You say you see beyond my beautiful 
Something deeper than my skin
But I was always running
I never took the time to see
I couldn't trust my own feelings
I just wanted to be
I just wanted to feel valued
I just wanted it to be safe to be me
Maybe I'll see what you saw
Maybe I won't need to run away
Maybe I'll see what's always been there
Maybe someday