24/2/17

Being around her kills me,
She drains me,
Empties me. 
Sucks out my feelings into her own self.
I'm not strong enough,
I want to be but I'm not.
I'm tough because I'm soft
I'm not rough enough to see her faults
I'm trying, I swear it.
It's killing me.
Don't blame me, 
Please don't blame me.

No one should be in a three.
Your stuck in the middle,
Trying to hold on, I see you, I'm not speaking up so I can keep you. 
As soon as I vocalise, realise my truths 
This all goes down to shit, I'll lose you,
I'm fine with just you, I can be true.
 
What now do I do?
I have the power to break this. 
I want to be positive, let you in like nobody else will. 
I can choose from many, I know that, but I want to try with you.
I see a potential,
A difference,
A new dynamic which I have never felt before,
understood before.
 
I'm not a child, I can still be friends. 
Keeping you in my life is what's important, 
This could just be a small bonus.

I see you for who you are, I don't want to change, I don't want to alter.
Keep you just as.
You saw this coming, I feel it in you.
You know your answer and so do I.
I understand I get it, I'm fly.