9/3/17-14/4/17

you looked at me with pride,
exhilarating eyes,
now that's fine, I get you need time.
 
My eyes look to the skies
constantly asking never getting
always knowing the path you're showing is ever growing
eventually leading somewhere, maybe nowhere,
understanding truth is everywhere but can never be spared.
keeping my head up, eyes open. My body, broken,
ambition lurking.
 
I don't need answers anymore I have faith.
I have trust knowing you will always keep up, keep me straight
forever blinded by my own restraints.
 
I turn to you as my guide, when the roads get rocky
I’m sorry when they're smooth I get cocky.
I'm young and naive, I hope you understand,
but sometimes I need to hold your hand.
I want to be able to climb without a net.
walk on top of the wall,
with no thought of resent.
Feel the grass blades between my toes,
understand that your gaze will never let me go on alone.
 
Know I think of you every day,
I’m never ashamed,
yet I’m always too late to call your name.
You do come to my rescue, give me strength,
be proud of what I’ve made of myself.
you force me to be the best,
leave behind the weak in trade for rest.
I call to you, in my hours alone, waiting for you to pick up and say hello.
help me now,
please I beg,
forgive me for what I’ve done,
let me feel again,
set me free again?