A CALCULATED GUESS

These are difficult 
I love you times..
My heart wants to cleave 
But there is doubt in my mind 

What am I supposed to do 
Seeing that I'm still in love with you 

Your smile, your eyes, your alibis 
Is not enough to hold my heart 
I told you that from the very start 
Why jump in, if you don't plan to win 

Love is a two way street 
But we must go in the same direction 
Anything less, is an emotional disaster 
And can cause unstable affections 

What do you see in me,
My feelings screams
At the way you've been treating me
Maybe I'm not what you were expecting 
So why hang on to what is defective 

These are difficult 
I love you times..
Another dark day in my tortured life 
Like having my heart removed 
Without anesthetics 
only a dull and rusted knife.

Wilford Barker.