A Dream Within A Dream

I woke up from a dream within my dream,
I was gone for a while,
Things changed,
My friends and family grew quiet when I asked questions,
As if there was something to avoid,
I was in a coma,
Took xanax to avoid anxiety,
It put me in a dream,
I missed the important things while I was gone,
As I woke up she was dying from a lung issue,
My decision lead to the loss of precious time,
As she died her friends provided me with clues,
As to why I shouldn't care,
Proof that she once cheated on me,
Proof that she didn’t care for me as much as I thought she did,
I tried to move on,
Finding another person to spend my time with,
However every time we departed to go somewhere,
I would go back to looking at clues,
Not to convince myself not to care,
But to reminisce to the things that DID make me care
As I traveled, I was surrounded by death
My friends died from drug overdoses,
It felt as if I was chasing them before their souls left the shell of their bodies,
I cried in my dream, I cried in my sleep
Pure devastation as I dreamed my lucid dream,
Suddenly, I heard word of her recovery
I thought she was dead
She was moved to a different hospital,
Stating she was improving,
As I made the decision to visit her,
She walked out of the room slowly,
Escorted, with the same smile and look on her face that originally made me fall in love with her
She got better
I thought she was dead
Then she was eager to leave,
She asked me for a ride to her funeral,
I thought I wasn’t dead.