A love I can't change

This room is my prison, 
with one peek whole outside to the real world.
I feel as if these days are getting darker. 
Every year that goes by i put another lock on my door. 
I took a oath that'd I'd stay put for you no matter how bad it gets.
I want you to know that my wheels we're slipping on the ice that day and I couldn't see you. I take fault for your absence but I still want to be with you.

I wonder where you are or what your doing. Do you think about me? 
Do you hate me? I'm starting to hate growing in this darkness blaming myself.
I know I fucked up, these voices surround me with my faults. I convinced myself that it's only my inner demons of my darkened days. I know we were suppose to grow together, now I am the reason your not alive and I'm sorry, but I still want to be with you.

If you go, I'll go to. 
I'll start with the locks on my door baby, 
you know I never would do anything to hurt you, 
I tried to stop!!! Stop saying I didn't try!!!  I grew with this guilt for way to long.
There baby, the door is unlocked. You put this fuckin hook above my door and
you brought me out so I could see my tire swing rope on the floor.
I took an oath that I'd stay put for you. I been alone for way to long. 
These voices are killing me baby. I don't want death. I know I was going to fast,
but I didn't see the fuckin ice and then I stepped out the car and when I saw your face,
You slipped away, took a big part of the love I had. 
I didn't tell anyone, I know that.
I hid your body and your corpse still lays under our favorite tree.  
I took a oath that I'd stay put for you knowing that you weren't to far away.
Thinking you'd come back. It wasn't my fault!!! it wasn't my fault!!!! it wasn't my fault!!!! Stop with the voices!!!!! Fuckin stoppppppp

And now I hang my self, from a love I can't change.

                                                                                                                       By: Kien Dunham