A Mate for Life!

I inhale the air of suffocating demise
a cold radiating cloud of angry despise
What shade of torment awaits my day?
as all waking seconds you insist I'll pay
I'm blinded in a dense forest of you
where'er I look you block my view
Instinctively I reach for you too much
though cruelly there's no flesh to touch
Forever stuck in de Je vu 
as all I know is what I did with you
I often sense the end is near
then on my cheek seeps a single tear
Is it time to let me go
or are you happy with this incessant horror show?
An age as passed in cold denial
and in my throat rises a rebelling bile
An ever shiver skins my flesh to see
a damning truth of the sick reality
I'm sorry now for all I lost
to keep my constant control a line was crossed
You were my sad puppet to do my bidding 
I should have known to Hell I was skidding 
The walls of justice keep closing in
a small cell I abode for an evil sin
And you won't leave or Rest in Peace
until the lies I keep saying do cease
If only I could admit to the crime
but to let you free my power you'd undermine
So your flesh and bones rot far away 
evidence damns me but will I ever say?
For I'm hard to win and want the last laugh
cruelty is all I worship as a psychopath 
So till my death will you be my ever host
and appease justice as my tormented cell mate ghost!