A parallel me

Sometimes I wish that I could split in 2.
leave half where it stands 
and the rest be with you.
To stay by your side 
for ever more.
And walk hand in hand
through every door.
And the other half live out its days happy still.
Falling in love with a different girl.
For you see 
now 
my heart.
Is tearing apart.
Bleeding for you 
And another too
Leaving me sleepless
Dazed and confused
With deep incompleteness 
Unsure what to do
For I know that our friendship 
Shall dwindle no less
And another friend gained
Shall cause me no stress
But my chests growing crowded.
Achy, inflamed.
And to fit in another.
Would make it too strained.
So as days turn to nights
And my eyes still don't close
I'm in need of rest bite 
From these turbulent flows
Of desires whirlwind 
Which leave here pinned
And wandering if
Someone will recind 
These feelings I have 
From which I can't run
Perused by myself
In stealth 
And out gunned
Am I destined to travel 
This world on my own
A lost soul unravelled
Desperate to atone.
Or will someone save me 
From the depths of despair
And return me to safety 
Once more debonair.
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