A Sad Story

You were just here or was it a fantasy. Fanatic I'm stuck neutral on autopilot. But yet these tears are on repeat. I walk on water but jesus isn't me. Every Night your presence invade my dreams. Its so surreal. You tell me its OK well meet again. Devastated I sit in past grief. Looking at pictures suppressing great memories. Way back when feeling like yesterday. You were here laughing tellin me you love me. Brotherly affection. I miss you everyday. I  walk by grandmas house sit on her porch wishing like old times the old flames will light. You'll come dancing down the street music in hand and sit next to me you know I'm down you make me laugh just that easy. I turn to my left and watch your spirit leave these streets are quiet. Silent sometimes I feel your forgotten. You always told me to keep writing no matter what don't give that up. Its in our blood. Creative minds. I watch still listen to your rhymes. DJ ghost. Now just a silent angel. Guarding the lives of loved ones.. Sad story. Sometimes I want to race to the lake hoping your there love and well. Sometimes I wish I could have saved you some how. In yet I'm here looking at these dark white walls of distant memories. Poetically writing sad stories. Cold weather breeze behind my dark brown eyes and I silently say goodnight as these tears dry. Rest in paradise big brother this will never be goodbye but always see you later in loving memory of Ajay White Restinparadise Ambrose Dominito White Jr
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