a threesome

me and my depression.
a friends with benefits relationship 
no love for each other 
but she fucks me when she’s bored
so stubborn she cannot be ignored 
creeps up on me unexpectedly 
never approaches sympathetically 
she is the first thing i think of when i wake up
not in a relationship but i want to break up
she is manipulative. 
she is controlling.
she makes me feel so low.
but she is the only one i can rely on 
from a baby to now she watched me grow
as people come and go
she was the only one willing to stay
every single day
always around 
she has never ever let me down
i guess the reasons my relationships have never worked out is because no one knows that they are signing up for a threesome