Alcoholic Dreams

I watch this drip run down my cheek ! I sit to think and realise all what has caused theses tears for these years ! I fell alone and your never there ! Unlike the smell of cider in air ! Now I'm older and have moved on , You moan and groan I never phone and when I do you busy tone ! When we speak your out your Reach you can't make senesce of your perception ! 
You need help and you can't accept that  really you are really sick ! I try to think of happy time like when I was younger and you pushed me on the swing and other parts of happy childhood !
,some bad times struck and made Life hard but we are strong so why do you find it so hard to move on ! I want you to be with me when I'm living my future and achieving my dream but the way that looks just now can only itself be a dream !  I know you find it hard that the big man is gone but he will be looking down guiding us on ! It's time to put the bottle down and see it from my side and why I have this frown , I worry that when we speak its the last time you will make that tear run down my cheek ? Are you safe ? Please don't frown I know that life gets you down ! Let's turn it up and please give that bottle up ! But At the end of the day it's got to be you that wants to have it this way ! You will always have me to help you and now as I wipe that tear from my eye and I think to myself as hard as it is you will always be my mum!