ALONE

As I continue to edit my book, I am reminded of a past isolation and silence that I now close the door on.

As I reclaim my place in society...I will always remember. I will never be alone again... I thank you beautiful Angels, for giving me a reason to live!

I was never in a yearbook
And I wasn't in your class
You never saw me wandering
I have no memories of my past
My fears were never mentioned
I didn’t have a mouth
You never saw me in the day
And you never, ever heard me cry out
I walked in such darkness daily
And what light I saw was pale
I ran in the winter to be free
But got caught and thrown in jail
They set me free, but I was watched
The rules I broke I paid a price
The days were long, as was my wish
That one day I would find someplace nice
I built my armor from within
My voice was silent years would pass
In each new home waited another nightmare
My time was short it would not last
But, great adventures follow for a loner
Off once more I go alone
Far from the isle where I was born
Far from the place, where I had no home
In another place I built new memories
Wrought not with anger, nor with pain
New friends await a weary traveler
A special friend gave me a name
I built new memories for a future
But time was short, I was misled
I was injured and the doctors that I thought I knew
Were dark inside and full of dread
The cuts and scars that maimed my body
Seven experimental surgeries I couldn't control
I walked daily through a living nightmare
Left without a thread of hope to hold
Like Alice in Wonderland, I fell down a shaft
I got lost in a world not many will know
Like the prisons I lived in when I was a child
I was lost in a system; I could no longer grow
This silent pain no one could see
And many refused to believe
Lost in medical madness, labeled and broken
By twelve doctors who wouldn't help, but only deceived
Year after year I fought to set things right
To clear my name and the uncertainty
In report after report, I pleaded for justice
And year after year, no one listened to me
It's been twenty-three years, and I'm still in the fight
I will not back down until this madness has ended
One day someone will wake up and take notice
And I will finally see justice for this body that cannot be mended
Somewhere in my life time was shifted
I came out into a world I do not know
And like a Phoenix rising from the ashes
Faith is still my greatest gift, as I continue to grow…..

© Brenda Keough- 1987

    3:00-3:04 a.m.

You never have to be alone...reach out...someone will care :)