amid the silence

Sometimes no matter how loud we scream, our voice remains silent. ?
 
Sitting on her bed
lighter in her hand
pain rushing through her head
she can barely stand
she took parts of her and threw it down the blackest of holes
cutting herself deep 
with the shattered pieces 
of her unguarded heart
the whispering of taunters 
haunt her scars
a painful toll
life seemed deadened in prayer from the start
where everyone assumes but nobody knows 
what is wrong???
hiding in the corners to avoid it all
is what she decides
escaping it all
this girl
so beautiful
in ways the world will never hear 
her song
the evil faded her light
lifeless eyes she now hides
the agony of fire beholds 
an icy tear
thoughts of hell bring her to her knees
sorrow cannot erase
vicious rumors in captive lies
this girl 
believes everything she hears
the wounds cut so deep 
heaven cannot efface
pain 
a cruel vengeance 
and not to be played with
if this girl could heal from any cut that bled her to shreds
a blessed moment 
would prove her life a myth
upon this night
hope has brought one more chance a desperate thread
her hopes of breaking again
weigh heavily 
and 
should not be overlooked
give voice to her silence 
instead of hate
summon for rains of relief 
to wash the sadness down
depression 
is her forever home 
and the memories 
have her hooked
trapped in chains 
for far too long 
and nothing to gain 
the seas of sorrow 
to watch her drown
she prays for death
but her heart pleas 
even to the saddest song
alive and pounding in her head
is love 
to come and take away 
the mourning in her breath...
One cut and another....
She is numb. 
 
I am your voice and I always will be.