An ending that never came

Trying to make it 
In a world I don't belong
So I thought I should sing this song
Everything I do seems to be wrong
Just not feeling this night
Thinking what a sight
The mess my life has become has caused me to be stressed
And people wonder why I'm depressed
When will it get better
Each day seems to get harder
But with these words 
Listen to the chords
Will you understand the meaning
I dream of one day screaming 
Get it all out
Just wanna shout It all out
I'm in a place I have no meaning
I feel like everybody is always scheming 
Never a day of truth
Never a say in what I do
Maybe it's my time
Thinking of a rhyme
Maybe I should let go
No regrets though
I want to say goodbye
But I'm afraid it's the wrong time
This isn't fair
How no one ever seems to care
Should I be scared? 
Of the power I have
To end it all
With just a song
With a word to all
I'm sorry I didn't give a call
I was ashamed
I'm the one to be blamed
It was my fault
I thought the world was my prize but never really considered
I wasn't the winner
Guess this is the end
Sorry I wasn't a good friend
I'm selfish 
Never meant to portray as selfless