Misunderstood Childhood

Growing up hearing mommy scream
Seeing the tears run down her face
Lil me didn't understand 
The pain I was seeing 
Now its all I'm feeling 
Dad walked out on us a few times, 
Comes back destroying the peace we had
Ma trynna support us
Dad trynna control us 
Wish I could fly away 
Just wanna hide away 
Hide away from the pain 
Don't want this for myself 
Tearing me apart seeing my family like this 
Dad was never proud of me 
Ma pushing me past my limit 
I look in the mirror
Shedding the tears I been holding in 
I act as if I'm strong
Always believed that was the case
But seeing me break like this 
Worst than seeing dad hurt my mom 
Thinking should I go home ? 
I let the only one who cared about me go
Finally found a man ma would be proud of 
Let him go for selfish reasons 
Hurt him worst than I could imagine 
So when I ask, will I turn out like my dad? 
Hurting the ones I love. 
Leaving them to heal on their own
Afraid to let my scars be shown 
I'll fight this battle 
Soon to win the war