An ode To my 3 boys, Kobe, Riley and Bradley

Kobe, Riley and Bradley, this ones for you You’ve been my will and spirit. My rocks when nothing else to cling to. My Will and spirit.... When only a tater of a thread is left, You’re there, Stitching the frayed patches with your genuine love and attentive care. 6, 8 and 12, You shouldn’t have to do this. Shouldn’t have to live my hell. Even for me is too much to bare. I’m sorry my 3 boys, Its all you’ve ever known, But in spite of it all I still smile through it though.... You may see the cracks and begin to wonder, But you all just being here makes me feel 100 times stronger. You’re my young carers, All 3 of you, I don’t think you realise how much I appreciate all your love and help. You bare so much on those tiny shoulders of yours, I don’t want any of you to break and fall to the floor. Just remember to stick together and forever you’ll be strong, All through our Bevan blood bond. We'll get there as I will always prevail, I’m not being sent anywhere just yet, Especially by coffin mail! But I’m sorry to say this as it truly hurts, It kills. But if it comes to it, Please be careful what path you choose, Don’t get lost In distant hills. Live your lives as I’d have loved to have carried on living mine, Take opportunities whenever you can, Just be safe and all will be fine. If I’m not here in my human form, My soul and heart runs through you so just look up to the skies and call. I’m dreading the day if I have to leave you all. Through happiness and smiles, So far we’ve prevailed. We’ve been on a hard journey these last couple of years. Lots of fighting and loads of tears. Emotions are running high and I get that, You’re seeing me perish, And I’m your dad. I feel tired and I feel weak, But for the smiles i produce on my kids faces, I cherish and make the pain lesa bleak. They say happiness is a pain reliever, Seeing you all smile makes me a true believer. Your smiles resonate through me and give me bursts of energy. Ok some days, Yes, I do over do it, But if your smiling at the end, Its priceless and worth it every bit.... Please try to remember the fun times, Your happy memories, They’ll keep you going if I do become deceased. I wont though, You know right, I’m a Bevan and going to be the first of us to beat this cancer fight. It’s life or death, This cancer within me. We take each day as it comes, And don’t worry about what the Drs reckon, Most are no better than a headless chicken... Smiles, Laughter and the love we’ve all given, I hope if I do go I’ll be forgiven. It won’t be me making the final hooks swing, So be happy if it’s what the reapers wishing , To know that I’ll always be watching over you. Helping to make the right decisions. I know over the last few years I’ve depleted, I’m going to make a surprise comeback, And treat you properly as my kids should be treated, As I won’t have the pain running deep down my back. I love how you look after me and do jobs freely, What ever did in do in life to have the three of you handed to me. I love you all, Kobe, Riley and Bradley xxxx