Anachronism

When the going is tough I am exhausted..
It feels like I have been dog paddling in the ocean trying to reach the other shore..
It feels like a weight has been added to my life jacket
The you tubers and tik tokkers have lined up with cell phones in hand; to watch the great houdini
pull it out of the hat one more time.
Well I fooled them 
I drowned while they were filming.
Actually that was quite good for boosting the views
I find the surreal reality caught on shorts to be addicting like crack
I wonder if world leaders use social media and you tube to make their world decisions.
Hey mate, what's the subscribed rate now are we monetized yet?
Biden vs Putin, Kylie Kardashian hS a bad nail day with views of her million dollar cabin .
World hunger and violation of human rights take second seat to the ten things your lover is thinking
Education is failing,  the year lost to kids in school is not noticed, in performance?
Elan Musk dances with girl friend Grimes In thousands dollar costumes while I can't afford a one bedroom apt.
What the he'll,
Iwhat happened to the reality I grew up in?
I turn around and all the people friends and family I knew as a kid are dead and gone.. 
I feel isolated like an anachronism 
yeah that is the new world order
Mate!