Anger

Anger is easy
It is being impulsive with no regrets 
Anger is saying what you think before you even think it 
Its not having to think about anyone but yourself 
Its saying fuck you to anything and anyone that gets in your way

Anger is also hard
Its draining; it takes so much energy
Its lonely, so many nights spent alone because of anger 
It hurts not just who it is directed toward but the person it seeps from
It hurts to be controlled by anger
Just like it hurts to punch a wall or to scream until your throat is raw 

But I will still choose anger 
Because anger is easier 
Anger has enveloped me to my very core 
It shakes the bones that hold me 
It boils the blood that surges through my veins 
I have nothing left except anger
It is the only thing I can depend on
To ruin me