Another year

Another year comes to an end and yet so many dreams unfulfilled,  the past holds on tight while I try so desperately to change a bitter heart ,the fact i stand alone betrayed by my "forever" such a deep wound has left me scared to love again , can't seem to catch a break my masks still hold on strong as the world sees a strong person , it has been so long and yet I can't forget the first day I heard your voice the day my eyes gazed upon so much beauty how can I make the past disappear it does so much harm and I can't let go I have tried so many ways I have done countless things and yet your face I can't forget, what am I? So much pain inside and tears won't fall even though my heart is in pieces pride keeps it glued my walls have become bigger thicker as the demons embrace me giving comfort a year soon will end and I can't defeat my past,  such poetry always the same reading all the pain venting it all out and still makes no difference, could there be such a place to escape it all and finally be at peace? Another year is coming to an end and I'm still here trying to change a bitter heart  to finally bring back the smiles I once had, perhaps all is lost ... sadness. Pain, such fuel for poetry so easy to do stories so easy to connect  how many can connect and say at one point they felt the same as I do  alone, abandoned , betrayed  who can relate ? And how did u escaped it all to be happy ..