Anxiety

The ideas that run through my head, make me feel emotionally left for dead. The fears that he planted in my brain continue to make me feel like I’m going insane. Sitting next to you looking like I’m safe and warm, yet on the inside there’s a mighty storm. I wish you could see how you make me feel, like nothing in this world that should ever be feared. Yet all I do Is worry about what ifs instead of enjoying the now. Oh how I feel like a clown In my own skin. He turned me into a joke and I’m fighting to not let him see me broken. Because I see you at the end of the tunnel with your arms open wide. I just hope my mind won’t keep me behind, I know the heart that you have and a love that is offered. For you are kind and he is wicked and I refuse to live in the shadows unloved and scared. So I’m trying to brake free of this anxiety so that in thee end I can truly be with who makes my heart happy.