Apologie

I try escape this darkness, 
So the demons set me free,

I try to break the silence,
But it's surrounding all of me.

Today i watched the sunrise, 
I starred into the sky,

I take a breath and hope to god,
To kiss all this riddance goodbye.

Trapped as my own prisoner,
Too scared I'll make mistakes,

As every choice I've so far made,
Has torn me until i break.

No won has the answers, 
I abide souly on my fate,

I just hope i find some medium,
Before it is all too late.

Never satisfied with commitment, 
I just couldn't change my ways,

Unfolding right in front of me, 
Hoping soon for better days.

Still it really amazes me,
The shit I've left behind, 

The carnage and destruction, 
Is all i seem to find.

It's crazy in an instant, 
A flicker in the eye, 

Can so many chances pass me,
But only so many times i can try. 

I sit back now and wonder,
What the hell I've done with my life,

The choices that I've made, 
I couldn't get a single one of them right.

Here is my apology, 
Too so many i must address,

To keep my focus now on board,
So i can be free of all this mess.