Back When

when your world just slowly collapses around you and no matter how hard you try you can't slow its pace. everyone around just becomes a blur as loneliness sets in. you can't run or hide cause its not a game of hide and go seek. It's not a game at all. at least in a game you have a chance of winning. what I'd give to go back to the days when reality was just simple and complexity weren't my responsibilities. When innocence was all i was and i was whole instead of broken. when i didnt feel monstrous and evil. When simply loneliness wasn't the only thing i knew. I'm amazed how in only a couple years your life can change. My old life is almost ghostly to me. haunting what used to me and taunting what is now. I never would of thought loneliness and everything in between could exist in a world so filled with people. i survive on my own in this insane world no matter how many people offer help. I'm just a lone wolf with in a pack.