Beatdown

I am the heartbreak,
and the broken,
Tired of being beat 
down.
I am the lost to my
only lonely I’ve 
ever felt in my
own cloud.
I am so tired of waiting
for the next time 
around, I just want
someone to listen
when I say,
Wait, what, how!!
without a sound
if you know me 
you know what 
I’m about,
loud , proud,
screw the next 
time around 
I’m all about 
the now.
The now you never 
gave a damn 
about, the now
I need like I always 
need you 
somehow…
~Deb