Beautiful Regrets

I am grateful for the things you taught me,
for the time you shared with me,
I am grateful for our time, and the lessons I have learned from our relationship.
I will remember all the good times with a smile
I will take all the bad times as a lesson on how I may act, think, and choose better.
 
I will own what was mine, good and bad
The words I said good and bad
When I was supportive, and when I was selfish
When I sacrificed everything, and when I would forget a special day.
When I was there on the times you fell apart, and on the times I walked away and left you to your vices.
I will not bedevil you, nor will I enshrine you.
You are not the worst, and you are not the best.
No relationship no matter what anyone says is just one person's fault or one person's dedication and success.
We meet people and we give them a chance
A chance to Love us or Hurt us.
We take a Chance, we take that leap for Love
We tell them the things that will either make us trust them for eternity if they guard them,
if these sacred memories are then used against us we grow to despise and mistrust them.
We let people in, in hope that this person may see every broken, ripped, damaged piece and say "You Are Art"
Where everyone else we let in saw confusion, immaturity,
and a wildness they couldn't contain, you saw the truth and you saw magic.
I have proclaimed this before and I proclaim it again I will not let this world change me to be twisted and bitter, it can only change me for the better,
when life is a grind let it sharpen your character, life make me grow yes, make me learn yes, make me evolve and question myself
 to put myself on a quest of personal discoveries yes.
By change I wish to elaborate I won't let the small parts of darkness in this world fill me with fear, contempt, greed, selfishness and pain.
I won't let the worlds dark corners, sharp edges, cold as ice concrete jungles, every hurtful nasty bad person that comes in to my life, they won't get the power to make me change for the worse, to become like them: mistrusting, unloving, uncaring. I choose sharing, laughing, singing, dancing in the rain.
For the angry parts of the world still hold beautiful people.
We call these angry types of people bitter cause like a sour lemon they refuse to be sweet. But they can't change me, they are welcome to be bitter, but I choose to be better.
I won't deny that free as a bird part of me. I will Hope, Love, I will give people a chance and I will fall in love with all my beautiful regrets,
Because to me if you have regrets you lived my darling, you really truly lived.
Everyone who leaves this world always leaves with some regret, make peace with them, fall in love with the lessons they brought you,
enjoy the fact that you lived, lived hard enough, tried hard enough, made enough mistakes to have them.
I would rather die with a thousand beautiful regrets, than die with the saddest regret of all that I let someone break my spirit,
break my heart, and I let that one-act make me give up, and never try to Love this precious gift called Life again.
I will always be grateful for my beautiful regrets

By: Xanthia Dean