Before you love me

Before you love me know I am like a force of nature. My presence is known before AND after I leave. I only want to hell until provoked to do otherwise. Know I love with all I have, BUT my expression of love- along with my wants and needs change often (like my thoughts and beliefs). Know I can be VERY insecure but once I let the thought "I can rule the world" get in my head, nothing Will stop me from doing just that. Know I stand up for what I believe in but I will put all my faith in you and forget everything I believe for you, if you need it. Know I will either be at my lowest point or my highest, there's no inbetween for me most times. I am black or white....unless I decide to feel nothing. Know that when I feel nothing I am so gray you will not recognize me, at this point i feel nothing, I have no faith and no beliefs. No reason to try, no one to love me and no one to push me. I need you to know I need someone who will understand this all, and be up for the challenge. Someone to push me and challenge me. Someone to make being this way worth it. So before you love me, know I will make your world or wreck it.