Being afraid of your own shadow

How do you explain how you feel 
people asking you questions 
But you can’t tell them how you feel 
Acting and playing in your daily life 
But certain people around you will give you the knife. 
How do I sleep at night they ask 
tossing and turning all night
its not a blast 
sitting up thinking all night sometimes I give myself a fright 
have you any idea to live like this 
to play the game and not be ourself 
sometimes I wonder if I have a-different life
what would you do  
how would you act 
who would you talk to 
Not having to act 
like how you normally do 
Be free to do what you want to
Doing what you want to 
imagine how that would feel 
But unfortunately for me that’s 
me on a regular afternoon drinking tea.